From Beyond Ordinary

Hi. I came across
your blog again after deciding not to read anything else. I am so overwhelmed
with my situation. I was reading way too much then got tired of being the only
one reading. I’ve had 3 D-Days so I really don’t know where the 1 yr. anniversary
falls. November 29, 2011, my ‘pastoring’ husband told me he had an affair that
started a few months earlier. After i was completely silent from shock, the
next morning he told me it was a stupid joke, a lie and not true. January 9,
2012, I confronted him from emails sent to me from a co-worker (he wk’s a 9-5
regular job). He admitted to the affair, but said it was only 3 blow jobs. I
would continue to be lied to about every aspect of the affair until June 25,
2012. While cleaning, I found bank statements of countless hotel rooms over
several months. Until 3 weeks ago, I had not spoken to him since June because
of the continues lies and fear of not getting the truth. I finally took a
chance and we spoke for 6 hrs at a restaurant. I thought overall i was getting
the truth until the next day when I couldn’t figure out why he was hesitant
about STD testing’s at his dr’s office. The dr office informed me that never
took such a test in the last 2 yrs. I have not confronted him about the latest
‘lie’ because I am completely exhausted and tired of fighting for this
marriage. He is now preparing to go to a convention (that he cannot afford) to
vote for our national bishop and except a nation position that he was just
promoted to about a month ago. I am so disgusted. He continues to except
invitations to preach. He was promoted because I protected him and his
reputation within the church and this is the thanks i get? Please pray for me.
Too much to write. I contacted you guys back in May, but didn’t get a response
and i know you’re busy. All anyone can do for me now is pray anyways. I really
need God to allow his will to be done. I know I have the victory, i just don’t
see it yet. I think i will be able to have a 1 yr anniversary the day he admits
that he has a porno problem and is seeking help for it alone first. The
together therapy doesn’t work as he continues to deny. I don’t know that there
is really a question, probably just needed to vent. I am encouraged by your
blogs though so keep blogging. Thanx and blessings.